Happy 4th Birthday to our daughter, Kassidy! It's hard to believe that it has been four years since we held you in our arms. November 5th will always be a bittersweet day for us as parents. It was the most difficult year of my life and it had such a profound effect on me as a person and a mother. I knew when we decided to carry an anencephaly baby to term that it wouldn't be easy. Every day would be both a blessing and a hardship. Not knowing when you'd be born, if you'd live a short time, or if I'd have time to tell you how much I love you. When you did arrive at 4:16pm on November 5th, 6 weeks early, the absence of your cries told me that you'd already joined God. I was overcome with relief- for you were home, safe, and healed. Every day since your passing I have thought of you and who you might have been. Can you imagine us now? We'd have a 4 year old, a 3 year old, a 1 year old and a newborn. You'd have a little sister to play with...
Which brings me to introduce our newest rainbow baby: Paige Blakely Johnston. She was born just 1 week ago on October 29, 2016. At a surprising 9lbs 9oz and 20 inches, she has stolen our hearts! I've always said that the death of a daughter has made me ache for one even more. I am feeling blessed! She is here, she is healthy, she is a gift. The boys adore her! I know Kassidy has watched over us and rejoiced with us as each rainbow baby has arrived.
Steven is now a wild 3 year old, and Beau is 20 months!
