It's always a strange feeling when November 5th comes around. I am joyful to celebrate Kassidy's short life and how much meaning she had to us. I am sorrowful that we didn't get a chance to truly know the person she is. With it being her 5th birthday, I imagine she would be an energetic preschooler running around with her three younger siblings.
Grief certainly stays around. Most of the time it hides, but sometimes it appears and hurts just as bad as the day I held her. Life moves on, and as a mother you are stretched between two realities. I am both stuck in a place where I am still grieving my daughter - yet I am also happy and raising my three other children.
Carrying Kassidy in 2012 after her anencephaly diagnosis was uncommon, controversial and rewarding. In a world where life is often viewed as a mistake after an abnormality is discovered, especially one where abortion is pushed since she wouldn't have a chance to live anyways....I am glad I gave her the longest life possible.
Today at 4:16pm, the time she was born, we will do our annual balloon release at the cemetery.
We love and miss you Kassidy! How did 5 years go by so fast?
Here are some updated photos of our family for my followers:
Steven is now 4 years old, Beau is 2.5 and Paige turned 1 last week!
